Hi there! It's been more than a year since I've posted my last journal entry .. I'm as happy as ever. Still in a fairly stable relationship with my girlfriend (sounds unemotional but is really great) which has lead to a kind of writers block. I spent all my creative energies on my girlfriend or an even better hypothesis: creativity only exists, when we are unstable (that is too sad or too well .. but not constantly happy on a relatively stable level) .. That's why I didn't write anything the last year .. now, I've written some more 100 themes poems. In the near future I've planned some photographes in the contxt of a mini study I'm planning for university. Another thing from uni is: I'm going to do part of my final examination on Postmodernism. Great books I'm reading and which I can only recommend. So far I've read "A History of the World in 10 and a half Chapters" and "Flaubert's Parrot", both by Julian Barnes. A really good read!
Hope you're all well!!

and just for the record, the 100 themes:

1. Introduction [link]

2. Love [link]

3. Light [link]

4. Dark [link]

5. Comforting [link]

6. Break Away [link]

7. Heaven [link]

8. Innocence [link]

9. Power hungry [link]

10. Breathe Again [link]

11. Memory [link]

12. Insanity [link]

13. Misfortune [link]

14. Smile [link]

15. Silence [link]

16. Questioning [link]

17. Blood [link]

18. Rainbow [link]

19. Gray/Sad [link]

20. Solitude [link]

21. Vacation [link]

22. Nature [link]

23. Animals [link]

24. No Time [link]

25. Trouble

26. Tears

27. Foreign

28. Sorrow

29. Happiness

30. Under the Rain

31. Flowers

32. Night

33. Expectations

34. Stars

35. Hold My Hand

36. Precious

37. Eyes

38. Abandoned

39. Dreams

40. sterotyping

41. Teamwork

42. Standing Still

43. Dying

44. Cross roads

45. Illusion

46. Family

47. Creation

48. Childhood

49. Path

50. Breaking the Rules

51. Players

52. Deep in Thought

53. Keeping a Secret

54. Memories

55. Waiting

56. Danger Ahead

57. Sacrifice

58. in my Head

59. No Way Out

60. Rejection

61. Fairy Tale

62. Magic

63. Do Not Disturb

64. Multitasking

65. Horror

66. Traps

67. Playing the Melody of life

68. Hero

69. Annoyance

70. Loss

71. Obsession

72. Mischief Managed

73. I Can't

74. Are You Challenging Me?

75. Mirror

76. Broken Pieces

77. Test

78. Drinking

79. Starvation

80. Words

81. Pen and Paper

82. Can You Hear Me?

83. Heal

84. Out Cold

85. Spiral

86. Seeing Red

87. Rumors

88. Pain

89. Through the Fire

90. Triangle

91. Drowning

92. All That I Have

93. Give Up

94. Last Hope

95. Advertisement

96. In the Storm

97. Safety First

98. Puzzle

99.Loner

100. Relaxation

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Mischa

Well well well .. here's the big news: I've got a girlfriend

and I'm no longer part of this world .... everything's turning out to be good .. everything happens in my favour .. nothing's bad, everything's just bliss
here's the story:
we know each other for quite a while .. we've been playing together in an orchestra for about 1 year and a half ... we're studying the same thing (music and english) ... we've been getting closer on a trip with this orchestra and then, at the end of the semester (at the 9th of Frebruary, to be specific), she writes an e-mail that goes like "I feel more than friendship" .. I couldn't believe my eyes ... she was somewhere else by then .. first in another part of Germany, then in England .. so we didn't meet for 3 weeks after her first mail ... we've been writing looooong mails each day since then and our first date has been on March 1st We're officially a couple since March 2nd and we cannot believe what is happening
She is just a dream
but why shold I bother you guys with details I just wanted to let you know, why I haven't been writing anything lately .. it's just that I don't feel like doing anything apart from being with her

I will post a picture of her when I have the possibility to



oh and still the hundret themes:

1. Introduction [link]

2. Love [link]

3. Light [link]

4. Dark [link]

5. Comforting [link]

6. Break Away [link]

7. Heaven [link]

8. Innocence [link]

9. Power hungry [link]

10. Breathe Again [link]

11. Memory [link]

12. Insanity [link]

13. Misfortune [link]

14. Smile

15. Silence

16. Questioning

17. Blood

18. Rainbow

19. Gray/Sad

20. Solitude

21. Vacation

22. Nature

23. Animals

24. No Time

25. Trouble

26. Tears

27. Foreign

28. Sorrow

29. Happiness

30. Under the Rain

31. Flowers

32. Night

33. Expectations

34. Stars

35. Hold My Hand

36. Precious

37. Eyes

38. Abandoned

39. Dreams

40. sterotyping

41. Teamwork

42. Standing Still

43. Dying

44. Cross roads

45. Illusion

46. Family

47. Creation

48. Childhood

49. Path

50. Breaking the Rules

51. Players

52. Deep in Thought

53. Keeping a Secret

54. Memories

55. Waiting

56. Danger Ahead

57. Sacrifice

58. in my Head

59. No Way Out

60. Rejection

61. Fairy Tale

62. Magic

63. Do Not Disturb

64. Multitasking

65. Horror

66. Traps

67. Playing the Melody of life

68. Hero

69. Annoyance

70. Loss

71. Obsession

72. Mischief Managed

73. I Can't

74. Are You Challenging Me?

75. Mirror

76. Broken Pieces

77. Test

78. Drinking

79. Starvation

80. Words

81. Pen and Paper

82. Can You Hear Me?

83. Heal

84. Out Cold

85. Spiral

86. Seeing Red

87. Rumors

88. Pain

89. Through the Fire

90. Triangle

91. Drowning

92. All That I Have

93. Give Up

94. Last Hope

95. Advertisement

96. In the Storm

97. Safety First

98. Puzzle

99.Loner

100. Relaxation

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Mischa

Hi everybody!
I've been pretty silent for a while .. sorry
much has happened since the new year has begun and I will tell you when the time is right
What I want to tell you now is: I will try to do the 100 themes (as listed below) .. I like the idea (but I'm not sure if I'm going to make it .. 100 is a lot!) I think it will be 100 poems .. maybe I'll put in some prose as well. And I will edit this journal entry everytime I have a new one so that there will be the links and such ...

1. Introduction [link]

2. Love [link]

3. Light [link]

4. Dark [link]

5. Comforting

6. Break Away

7. Heaven

8. Innocence

9. Power hungry

10. Breathe Again

11. Memory

12. Insanity

13. Misfortune

14. Smile

15. Silence

16. Questioning

17. Blood

18. Rainbow

19. Gray/Sad

20. Solitude

21. Vacation

22. Nature

23. Animals

24. No Time

25. Trouble

26. Tears

27. Foreign

28. Sorrow

29. Happiness

30. Under the Rain

31. Flowers

32. Night

33. Expectations

34. Stars

35. Hold My Hand

36. Precious

37. Eyes

38. Abandoned

39. Dreams

40. sterotyping

41. Teamwork

42. Standing Still

43. Dying

44. Cross roads

45. Illusion

46. Family

47. Creation

48. Childhood

49. Path

50. Breaking the Rules

51. Players

52. Deep in Thought

53. Keeping a Secret

54. Memories

55. Waiting

56. Danger Ahead

57. Sacrifice

58. in my Head

59. No Way Out

60. Rejection

61. Fairy Tale

62. Magic

63. Do Not Disturb

64. Multitasking

65. Horror

66. Traps

67. Playing the Melody of life

68. Hero

69. Annoyance

70. Loss

71. Obsession

72. Mischief Managed

73. I Can't

74. Are You Challenging Me?

75. Mirror

76. Broken Pieces

77. Test

78. Drinking

79. Starvation

80. Words

81. Pen and Paper

82. Can You Hear Me?

83. Heal

84. Out Cold

85. Spiral

86. Seeing Red

87. Rumors

88. Pain

89. Through the Fire

90. Triangle

91. Drowning

92. All That I Have

93. Give Up

94. Last Hope

95. Advertisement

96. In the Storm

97. Safety First

98. Puzzle

99.Loner

100. Relaxation

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Mischa

time for a journal entry ..

The year is almost over and it has been an eventful year (in some aspects) ...

First of all: I've joined in April and I have never regretted this decision

It has been the year of one special person who has rejected me at last (but you knew that ) thanks to all of you who were so kind to me recently (and in general) you were such a great help.

Concerning this lost dream, I will post some of the poems I've written for her and which I haven't posted yet ... at least you will enjoy them (at least I hope so )

It has been a fantastic year though ... I've been highly in love (though useless, but the feeling counts ), I've been creative (written several poems, made some good pics), I've made people happy, I've helped my friends when needed and I am happy for this (though sometimes I feel rather lonely .. but that's normal .. and it's not for long cause I know I have many friends here and all over the world (thanks !!) )

So I cannot complain which gives me the freedom to help people, to comfort them so: If you have any problems, just give'em to me

a word to all of your art: I really enjoy your work .. reading it, seeing it, gives me inspiration and feelings .. thank you, you're amazing !!!

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Mischa

... 1000 ...

ok .. officially no words .. 1000 views .. OMG .. you are amazing

another thing: I'm back Vancouver rocks!! I fell in love with this city .. but I had to come back
Photos will be on soon, I guess .. I don't have much time now .. Uni will start in two weeks time and I still have to write two term papers .. and I have to practice .. especially as I have my final test in singing next semester .. well well well .. let's see how this works ..

so, that's it for today, greetings to all of you!